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♥ Saturday, August 30, 2008

1:38 AM so much to mention but you cant find the words

MOVED.

http://thegreeneffect.livejournal.com

partially locked.

bye bye blogger.
but the memories will still remain.

and all that was left will still be there...

♥ Thursday, August 28, 2008

9:45 PM so much to mention but you cant find the words

Listening to: Cannonball by Damien Rice
(Song was playing on manda's blog and i really liked it).
Youtube version playing:
Radio Mix verison, video playing of One Tree Hill (someday i wanna watch the show again becos i only watched it in bits and pieces)

there’s still a little bit of your taste in my mouth
there’s still a little bit of you laced with my doubt
it’s still a little hard to say what's going on

there’s still a little bit of your ghost your witness
there’s still a little bit of your face i haven't kissed
you step a little closer each day
that I can´t say what´s going on

stones taught me to fly
love, it taught me to lie
life, it taught me to die
so it's not hard to fall
when you float like a cannonball

there’s still a little bit of your song in my ear
there’s still a little bit of your words i long to hear
you step a little closer to me
so close that I can´t see what´s going on

stones taught me to fly
love taught me to lie
life taught me to die
so its not hard to fall
when you float like a cannon..

stones taught me to fly
love taught me to cry
so come on courage, teach me to be shy
'cos its not hard to fall,

and I don't want to scare her
its not hard to fall
and i don't want to lose
its not hard to grow
when you know that you just don't know

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i made a very big mistake today at work and it more or less affected my mood for the entire day.
my mind was really preoccupied with various things but there was excuse for that.
no one really scolded me for the mistake but a mistake made was more or less an imperfection.
it tainted the rest of the day.

taka was crazy yesterday and good thing its not so crazy today.
ive been put in charge of the taka event for the past week.
my ic has been busy with other things so i have been managing it and then reporting to her.
im quite relieved that i wont have to carry that responsiblity after this week.
its quite tiring honestly.
and perhaps i feel like that too becos i havent had a good rest for quite a while.
im being posted to harbourfront centre's fila retail outlet tmr.
its full shift and i dont really mind because it ends at abt 930 or 945pm, which is one of the outlets to end early.
also, its my last day with fila tmr.
holiday for 2 weeks (with cca meetings here and there) and then its back to school.
freaking results are coming out next week.
im scared out of my eyes but i have to chill..

comex on saturday to buy a hdd.
and then meeting friends next week!
socio girls on wed, shokudo.
(sorry that khai cant come along but we remember you ok! hahaha. we shld stick ur pic on a chair or something. take care and talk to you soon!)
ive only ever been there once before.
and the queue was mad, although we managed to fast forward that time or something.
anyway, we're meeting early so shld be alright.
havent seen u guys in ages!
catch up!
and then meeting manda on thurs.
havent seen u in donkey years ok (ok since u sent me off to london, heh).
i think for the rest of the week, im either gonna just slack at home or something.

made a discovery.
not something i was hoping to find or see.
but i did anyway and i cant un-see it or un-discover it.
so i guess thats just the way the story goes...
something inside me wished i didnt get to see it at all.
because now i cant ignore it nor can i sit and remain at status quo.
someone give me the reverse button now please.

♥ Sunday, August 24, 2008

11:59 PM so much to mention but you cant find the words

listening to champagne supernova but oasis
how many special people change, how many lives are living strange?

literally
i blogged just now about something bothering me but i deleted it again.
no point saying anything here anyway.
and friendsforever is seriously bullshit.
i dont understand why we ever believed it as a child anyway.
what crap.

work.
work will be at taka this week.
afternoon shift for monday's event and friday's retail.
full shift for tuesday and morning shift for wednesday and thursday.
thank you for not giving me crazy full shifts for continuous days although i was originally rostered for it as i was supposedly the part timer ic.
2 more weeks of work and then im done.
one week of holidays before i return to school.
results will be back soon.
i dont really knw what to expect.

i've been busy and whatevers' been bothering me has been put to the back of my mind.
i dont usually dream but i had a dream 2 nights ago.
are dreams really signals or are they just intuitive knowledge?
dont know, dont care for now.
will come back to it when im less bogged down with things to do.

IT show or PC show or whatever u call it next weekend.
going on saturday to buy a hdd to put in stuff.
but first, i have to brace myself for the crowd.
the crowd, i definitely hate.
suntec's gonna be mad again.
and im gonna escape from suntec right after church on sunday.
its gonna be freakily and insanely crowded.
far away is where im going.
on 2nd thoughts, seeing it will be the last day, the deals might be better...
hmmm..

i need a break and plenty of sleep.
maybe coffee.

work tmr so bye!

♥ Saturday, August 23, 2008

12:40 AM so much to mention but you cant find the words

As I was rearranging and folding some core polos at the event, a man walks up to me and asks, "Hi is this the real (insert brand name)?"

obviously taken aback by the random question, i turned to him, frowned for a split second and then smiled to be polite and said, "Yes sir indeed it is."
not satisfied with my answer, he goes on, as if trying to leave me dumbfounded, which i already was by the way.
"Then do you have a rainning shoe?"

Thinking that i must have heard wrongly and seeing that he was fiddling with the women's flats we had on display, I double check, "A ladies shoe?"

and he looks at me and says, "No, a rainning shoe."
This time, I realised my mistake. He must have meant running shoe! So to be sure i said, "Oh a running shoe!"

and he looks at me like i've gone mad.
"No. I said a rainning shoe."
He emphasized on the word "rainning" like i was stupid enough not to know what rain was.
Extremely puzzled by now, I enquire futher "what kind?"
and this time he smiles, happy that i understood him and he said with much relief but much to my dismay and/or horror "A slipper kind of shoe."

By now, i've already dropped what i was doing and a part-timer friend was standing close by, eavesdropping but ready to drop what she was doing and help too if required.
Not willing to give up, i tried again "Would you like a slipper or a shoe? Or are you referring to a sandal?"

The man frowns once again, showing how unpleased he was.
In his head, I was probably the worst salesgirl ever in history because I couldn't understand what he wanted.
With much dissatisfaction, he says, "No its not any of it. Its a slipper kind of shoe."

and so I decide to enquire further to check if i could really help this customer.
"How does it look like?"
but even more to my horror and this finally caved in on me, he said "It looks like a slipper kind of shoe." and smiled, happy with himself that he had now told me exactly what he wanted.

I finally gave up and said, "Sorry Sir, I don't think we have such shoes. But do look around, maybe you'll see it."

and all the other part timers, having heard the whole thing by now, walked away with their backs to him, laughing as silently as they could.

♥ Thursday, August 21, 2008

9:16 PM so much to mention but you cant find the words

fila has started its sports event tog with other brands like kappa, everlast and mizuno at the talking hall in taka, basement 1.
i was there to help and setup the place today.
apparently, i wasnt supposed to work for events, but for retail instead.
retail preferred me to take up their roster but events needed people and rostered me the moment they could.
anyway, im doing half half next week i suppose, but it'll be all at taka, either talking hall or the fila retail corner itself.
the good thing about working in taka is that i dont have to do cashiering and handle money, i'm always doubtful about handling money that isnt mine.
the bad thing about it is that i have to walk really far from orchard mrt because the entrance area for staff is at the other end of taka and its huge.
so full shift tmr and then for the whole of next week, except for thurs.
i might be rostered for retail, if not then i have a day off.
which is good too considering that i dont have a social life or much time to myself since i started working.
im really exhausted and i fall asleep standing on the train only to wake up to the jerk of the train when it brakes.
im considering ending work on the 5th of sept so that i have a week off before school begins.

and speaking of school, i have been allocated my new event for the year in the student council.
they gave me dinner and dance and my first thought was that its too close to the mock exams.
but its not a bad thing after all becos its definitely a change from pageant or bash.
i have til 24th aug to decide.
i cant decide.
......

i think i really need a good break before sch starts.
i havent had a proper good break where i cld sleep properly or breathe and have time to myself since exams ended in may.
ok maybe i did, the week right after exams.
but since then, it has been never ending planning for london, getting my paperwork done, bank stuff, visas, blah.
then i finally went to london, studied, did this and that, slept very little, went sight seeing, studied whatever i cld.
and when i came back, it was a week of total hell becos i was trying to recover rom jetlag and then non stop 15 hr work every freaking single day for the whole 7 days straight.
and now, retail. yeah but events kind of stole me.
so yes, i freaking need a break where i can do what i want whenever i want with whomever i want with whatever i want.
and what do i want to do?
alot of things.
and one of it is to get a really good book, get a table cloth from daiso, bring a basket of food and a cooler with nice cool ribena and sit on the beach and read my really good book.
don't be fooled.
i am a extreme bimbo trying very hard to nerd-fy myself.
and i hope its working.

♥ Saturday, August 16, 2008

6:59 PM so much to mention but you cant find the words

Listening to Chasing pavements by Adele

I'm preparing my move from blogger to livejournal so that i can partially lock it.
but i'm waiting for the basic account to be reinstated so that the ugly advertisements will not be there.
however, ugly ads will still be visible to non livejournal users.
oh well, trade offs.
also, unlike blogger, i wont have a side bar to put misc stuff so lets see how i can solve that too.
and my layout will definitely be much simplier than this blogger one.
once everything's solved and up and running, i will start adding livejournal accounts or comment to be added.
you will be notified here.
and i specially set up an account for close friends who do not have an lj account and wish to see my locked entries as well.
please do not feel offended if i dont add you back or give you that account.
and no selling journals please unless you're my friend and ur only lj is a selling journal. =)
too much viewership on my so called life is cornering me.

work roster for the following wk comes out on sunday night, so i will blog about it again.

im still in the process of yadada-ing through my photos taken in london because i really dont have the time and so i do it when i'm not working, which is weekends and some mornings or nights, depending on which shift i'm given.
i think i'll take like forever or something la.
some are in facebook already, if you dont have an account, get one? =))
anyway, i'll be removing some when i get a hdd at the IT show.
the IT show is coming again and yes i go for every one of it.

i went by the driving centre the other day and some of the learner drivers were on test.
i kind of laughed to myself because it reminded me of how tensed i was during the test.
its been about 7 months now, in 5 months time, i can finally drive without a P-Plate!
thinking of renting a car out when i turn 20 this year.
it'll be fun.

i also went by toa payoh the other day at lorong 1 and everything was so familiar.
man, i do miss the food there.
but thinking about it now, working at sbs was really a luxury...

bubble tea in singapore is ten times cheaper than that in london.
bubble tea is in my blood.
i will go cold turkey without it.
just kidding! but u get the idea.
passion fruit green tea with mini pearls helps me to relieve my stress.
throw in some kimchi and its the ultimate stress reducer.

i havent gained back my weight lost from london yet because i've been working alot.
I DONT WANT TO BE THE FAT SISTER! =)

♥ Tuesday, August 12, 2008

12:28 AM so much to mention but you cant find the words

All fall down by one republic.
one of my friends managed to get into singfest and said one republic was the best.
=)
i wish i was able to make it to singfest!

ive decided not to join the standard chartered marathon.
i want to save money.

short post.
sleeping soon for work tmr.
just wanted to post up this song.

♥ Monday, August 11, 2008

10:03 AM so much to mention but you cant find the words

Listening to: how to save a life by the fray

yes i've been working for 14 - 15 hrs daily for the past week for the fila event.
its so mentally and physically exhausting.
i think singaporean shoppers need to exercise abit of consideration for others, for other shoppers and for us retail staff as well.
when we start barricading the area and start tidying up stuff and wrapping them up, it clearly shows that we are closing.
i mean, come on, its already 1030pm.
the mall is closing.
like why are you still indifferent to that and why in the world are you still shopping at this hour?
and please for the love of cows, do not mess up what i have taken ages to tidy up.
you take barely a few seconds to mess the entire wagon up while i take a good few minutes to tidy it up.
its freaking 11am and i want to go home.
but no, we have to fold every single thing and sort them out into the correct wagons.
only then can we go home.
at what time?
1am.
and what time do i report for work the next day again?
930am.
when i clearly live in tampines.
and ps is at dhoby ghaut.
i have to take the bus, take the mrt and then switch to the north-west line.
where do i factor in sleep?
thank goodness its over though.
but they have offered me their retail work and im taking it up.
its defintely much better than event work.
=)
I'll be doing it til school starts and on weekdays only.
roster changes every week and so does location.
ive been given plaza sing for tues and wed, 1045am - 730pm and tampines mall for thurs, 130pm - close.
im not sure about friday yet.

i still miss london and some days i dream about it in my sleep.
freaky huh.
but its a really nice city.
of cos i still love singapore, but perhaps not the weather.
its too hot here.

summer school has sent me the confirming email of my grades.
transcripts will arrive in sept.
UOL shld be releasing my grades soon also i think.
the year 1s have started school.
the student council is regrouping us for our event for the year again.
hopefully i get pageant and bash again like last year.
school will be back in full swing in a month's time.
and the stress begins........

♥ Friday, August 01, 2008

12:19 PM so much to mention but you cant find the words

Listening to: You deserve By Hillsong

Argh.
I am so angry at myself.
I have been ironing my own clothes since the age of 11.
and this is the first time ive actually burnt something.
like literally burnt, black with a hole in the middle.
and its not like some old random shirt.
it was my freaking nice dress which i only wore once in london.
arghhhhh.
im so angry at myself!

its friday today and its been about 5 days since i came home.
weather wise, its pretty burning here.

i've still not adjusted back to singapore time yet but i am doing my best.
2 nights ago, i tried to go to bed at 1am and ended up not being able to sleep at all.
on top of that, i finally got out of bed at 2am and made myself a tuna sandwich because i was so hungry (dinner time in london).
whatever it is, i have to try to quickly adjust back as i'll be working next week and it'll be long hours.
I cannot afford to be late nor can i afford to be sleepy while i work.

i've been unpacking and doing endless washing and ironing
on top of that, im still trying to sort out the 3000+ pics and videos and uploading them onto facebook lest anything happens to this laptop.
i took so many pics because i wanted to "bring london home".
i wanted to remember most of my experience.
its just too bad that i didnt take that many pics with my friends.
but im glad my other friends did and uploaded the group pics onto facebook.

i got my grades for summer school already thanks to Axel who helped me check despite him being busy.
and thanks to God who helped me through and gave me this grades.
I've never done well in anything before (truthfully) and i can more or less say this is my first achievement.
im going to treat myself one day.
haha it sounds pathetic i know.
but i'm really happy and motivated to do better in life.
i was honestly freaking happy.
because the finals were really tough.
OH MAN!

now i await my actual school results from UOL and i pray that they turn out good.

im going back to church this sunday and it doesnt matter that i have to queue for an hour.
but i would really like to go back to the hillsong church in london one day again.

work begins on monday at PS with long hours.
i will be working right through national day as well for one entire week.
long hours begin.
but its just for a week.

i am still depressed from leaving london.
somehow i think that as time stretches and goes by, my friends will all forget each other and me.
and i dont want that to happen.
if only summer school was longer.
but what good would it do, bonds will be stronger, parting will be tougher.
i really enjoyed the lse summer school and i enjoyed london.
and i wished it didnt have to be so short.

im jetlagged and depresssed.
leave me and let me be.

/edit/
standard chartered marathon registration is open.
and i want to catch the early bird promo thing.
who is gamed for it?
i might join the 10km one (crap man dont know if can tahan and run the full thing).
but i will train my knees for it.
but its damn expensive!
anyway, will discuss with my sister, if not my friends.
i know i walked alot in london.
but this is running not walking!
plus i got to sit in between here and there.
time to start training again.
im going running later.

♥ Tuesday, July 29, 2008

9:25 PM so much to mention but you cant find the words

Listening to: Your name high by Hillsong (this is our God album)

just before i got into the cab, i cldnt hold back the tears.
i really miss everyone.
thanks all for the great experience.
thanks to my sister who paid it all for me. heh.

the 13 hr plane ride back home was the worse in my life.
it was turbulence after turbulence.
thanks to roomie for the support given.
freaking flight.
and when i land, the first thing my sister does is not ask if im alright or whether im okay.
do u know what was the first thing she asked me when i landed?
haha, what in the world man sis!

anyway, i was suffering from jetlag, hang over and exhaustion from the flight, i collapsed on my bed after a good shower after dinner that day.
but last night, i cldnt get to sleep last night til 330am even though i tried to turn in at about 130am.
and then i had a hard time waking up in time to go collect my fila uniform.

after that i met pris and we saw the brazil football team in airport!

friday meeting anna and engtian.
whoots, havent seen u guys in about a million years.

but.
i need to start unpacking more of my luggage tmr.

my stomach isnt adjusting well to the meal timings either.
apparently, it wasnt very welcoming to food at unfamilar timings and so i had to suffer the consequences til now.
why cant the world just have a uniform timing and all.
this is so frustrating.

and my grades are out already ourside the summer school office but i cant check it cos im not there. argh.
just have to wait for my transcripts.
the wait is tormenting.

♥ Saturday, July 26, 2008

1:01 AM so much to mention but you cant find the words

listening to: how to save a life by the fray

last day of school today.
or rather, just finals today.
party tonight.
or now rather.
going soon.

pubbing tonight.
a little expensive.
but last night in london already.
and everyone's like going or something.
i dont plan on sleeping early also.
becos i also have to pack.

please please please dont let it be over the weight.

♥ Friday, July 25, 2008

2:04 AM so much to mention but you cant find the words

listening to: yellow by coldplay

thank God for my mid term results
thank God for keeping me safe
thank God for my sister who sponsored me to london
thank God for my family who has been so supportive of me throughout the entire time
thank God for everything in my life.

In all things,
Thank God.

i want to go to new creation church next week.

finals tmr, off i go now.
mug.
and pray
=)

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Oh before i forget,
today we were in the room and eileen suddenly backed away from her laptop very silently with her eyes wide open.
i stared at her for a while and tried to look in her direction and she said that there was a wasp.
true enough, i saw it, huge and black with red stripes.
and then it moved barely a centimeter and we both screamed and ducked.
we slowly got up and looked again. it didnt want to go away.
fianlly, we called melissa for help who came down and tried to help us.
she took like a piece of scrap paper and gingerly tried to scoop up the wasp.
but.
it moved again and this time we all screamed.
the image of us screaming just becos the wasp moved a little was really funny.

credits to melissa for helping us get rid of the wasp.
what a way to start our morning.

♥ Thursday, July 24, 2008

7:28 AM so much to mention but you cant find the words

listening to: collide by howie day

i plugged my green mp3 into my ears today and power walked to school.
it took me barely 10 minutes rather than the usual 15 minutes.

mid term results still arent back yet.
apparently they are waiting for approval.
finals are this friday.
i shld get down to serious business.
been going out almost every night after classes to hang out with friends.
i have classes in the monring tmr but not lectures.
so i will do my studying tmr.
but i have no idea what im gonna do on friday after exams seeing that i finish so early.

after class i went with friends to white hart, the pub just beside high holborn.
i had a pint of strongbold cider beer.
not bad.
i generally dont like the smell n taste of beer.
but this was alright.
i talked with a friend of mine about our different cultures and systems of our countries.
it was like a culture exchange class but it was fun, a thousand times more fun.
there was a guy who tried something funny but i was smarter of course.
he gave up eventually.
Senay and I left after that.

i have no idea what im gonna do on friday after exams and after the leaving party.

its my last few days in london and the feeling of depression from leaving my friends is setting in.
summer school - all time.

♥ Tuesday, July 22, 2008

5:25 AM so much to mention but you cant find the words

listening to: carry you by james blunt (love most of his songs and im gonna get the chords for them on guitar when i get back to singapore).

i slept at about 130am this morning and its one of the earliest days ive slept so far.
walking back from tate modern and all the other walkings ive done have tired me out.
totally.
the moment i hit the pillow and hide under the sheets (freaking cold weather ok!), i fall into peaceful sleep (well not really becos ive been having nightmares recently, i will pray about it) and when i wake up to my alarm, it feels like 1 second later.

after breakfast this morning i went back to UOL to get myself a pullover and tshirts (at discounted prices becos they were the last pieces in the size i wanted).
UOL is beautiful.
i love it here.
i mean i went there yesterday but the student's union shop wasnt open.
and when i walked there yesterday, i had to constantly check the map.
i really like how i can walk along the streets and know exactly where i am and im able to enjoy the scenery without the hassle of constantly looking at the map.
its the being able to fully appreciate the full essence of the place that i really like alot.

then class, lunch and then lecture.

went to the dark knight batman premiere with friends at leicester square.
crowded.
or jam packed rather.
i got a glance of the casts before i finally left because it got too much for me.
it was way too crowded for me.
crowds, i dislike.
unless its new creation church.

i grabbed dinner and came back to eat it and chatted with a friend in my kitchen.
we didnt keep track of time but we chatted til 930pm.
but we both returned to our rooms after that becos i had things to do.

word is spreading.
dont make fun of me ok!
anyway, hope word wont spread too far n whoever hears it, forgets it.

leaving for singapore this saturday.
i think im going to be extremely upset when i have to leave holborn to go to the airport and return home.
its not that i dont miss home.
but ive really had friends here.
anyway, it was a fantastic experience.
but i have to return to reality.

mid terms results are supposed to be out but they arent on the web yet.
oh the torment!

♥ Monday, July 21, 2008

4:12 AM so much to mention but you cant find the words

listening to: all the small things by blink 182 (they played this on riverboat and we were like singing along with it. freaking cheesy.)

yesterday i woke up, had breakfast and then went to tate britain in the morning to view art pieces.
i think that art previously held more meaning than modern art.
i cannot find it in myself to appreciate modern art.
so i kind of went through the various art galleries they had.

and then i had lunch at the victoria london station.
wicked after that, with the girls at the apollo victoria theatre.
its my first musical and its fantastic.
the witch had a freaking good voice.
its so amazing, i cant believe that such a voice actually exists.
no seiously.
its so surreal.
but anyway, it was awesome.
and considering that i got a student price for the thing.

hyde park after that.
met classmate for dinner.
we walked towards hyde park and park lane.
after dinner we ended up at picaddilly circus and she walked home becos its near for her and i took the bus.
buses in london are generally cheaper.
so i take the bus whenever available.
sometimes i take the bus to lse and walk the 15mins back to dorm.

this morning, i woke up and went to UOL after breakfast.
its so huge!
and really nice.
i think i was consumed with so much emotions that when i stepped onto the UOL grounds i was so thankful to tears.
took plenty of pics.
i am returning there tmr morning to get myself some UOL merchandise (will put under my own tab).

i came back to rest for a while and then i met another classmate for church.
i went down to the reception to wait and they were blasting james blunt into the speakers.
and i decided that all his songs are not bad.
tears and rain is still my wake up alarm and will always be for a long time.
(my mind can only wake up to that song).
anyway, london's hillsong church!
IT WAS SO AMAZING OK.
like suddenly i was being transported back home to new creation church all over again.
becos the london hillsong church is a grace church too.
and their worship is exactly like new creation's one.
anyway, they showed pastor prince also.
good sermon, good service, was rejuvenated and happy after that.

then came back to have lunch.

went out again.
this time, took the tube to st. paul's.
so st. paul's, millenium bridge, tate modern and shakespeare's globe.
and then i walked all the way back from there.
it took me about an hour.

i rested again.
and then i went to chinatown to have dinner.
i had beef noodles!!
do u know happy i am?
i couldnt find kimchi though.
chinatown made me smile alot.
i managed to identify some singaporeans and smiled to myself secretly.
i knew they were singaporeans for 2 reasons.
1. the singlish they spoke
2. the fact that they were saying, "lets go see if the other shop sells it at a cheaper price before deciding".

I am going home to have bubble tea, beef noodles, kimchi and watch the oc and scrubs.

work also starts when im back.

i am so tired now
im gonna wash up
and hope i am able to do my readings before i sleep
but i doubt it